Wednesday, February 24, 2016

We all have our own burden in life. Ones just hide it better than others. [24/2]

You see, I'm dealing with my own demon; so you are.

In my life I feel like I haven't accomplished anything I've ever dreamed of.
As for you, perhaps you feel like you're trapped in that kind of life you've always dreamed of leaving.

I'm dealing with this deep sadness and loneliness every night.
It's getting worse sometimes. But what else can I do?
I'm waiting for someone to save me; I feel helpless.

You're dealing with your boring life, waiting to get out and soar with your own wings.
You feel like everything you do is irrelevant, so you let life rather goes with the flow.
You're not the captain of your own fate, yet.

You have all the chance you can get to make your live worth more living.
You can break all the possible obstacles ahead of you.
Why can't you go for it and free yourself?

What's with that facade?

Meanwhile, I'll still deal with myself.
Because there's no way to save me from myself.

Or did I just fool myself?
I'm way too selfish, because I actually want you to save me.
Pathetic of me.
But seeing you like that, I feel so terrible of myself.
I'm nothing. I've done nothing for you.
I'm merely nagging and complaining for my life;
yet you don't get to tell me what's going on with your life.

But if I weren't like that, would you still keep silent about it?
Would you just stay tongue-tied and thinking: "there's no use of telling anyone? It's my own problem."
Or were you just okay with it? With your life?

Why do I still feel terrible of myself?
Oh, I see, I also feel bad that I'm no longer this someone you can rely on.
Or did you ever rely on me even once?

Did I disappoint you? Because you thought I was just the same with the others?
Did I change so much?
Oh, sure I'm a boring one, myself.

Sometimes I really want to stay shut about my shit going on and stuff; like you did.
But I can't bring myself to that.
Not that I can't stop thinking about it.
It kept haunting me. I can't run away from myself.

I can't.

I know how it feels like when I'm all alone and no one's here for me.
I know how it feels like when I'm not alone and still feel like none's ever around to care about me.

Can't I be something you need? Or something you love?
Or someone you can run to when you feel like the world left you behind?
Can't I be someone I can't find for myself, for you?

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